Another victim of the unfair game of Bushtarion.
/turns off sarcasm
Okay, well I've had a few chats with you before Coruba, and you seemed pretty into learning - I spent a fair bit of time explaining tactics with certain routes, and the concepts of ratios and the like, but ultimately a craftsman cannot blame his tools. He can only blame himself when he fails.
How you see your situation as failure, is what you have done wrong. Your alliance were never going to get rank 1, even if the resistance did succeed. You would then have another alliance doing the same thing, as technically you were the weakest alliance of the three resistance alliances. And I know that would be my train of thought as a successful resistance alliance.
As for the comments regarding Jukebox, the alliance was full of experienced people, that decided to have a bash at playing hard at the start, and seeing where it got us (I will point to dRageQuit, who were of similar mindset). Contactability was not a requirement, and in fact, most chose not to take that path until we had already won, or for mass attacks. We won because we made our lead early in, and the only valid competition by the time intel was out (Kraken, ironically) was just drowned by our first wave. If I was honest, I believe out of the starting lineup, I was the only lazy person (as I didn't really want to play actively, nor ftw) in the entire group.
Good luck quitting, and if you decide to return, say hey in the #bush room. I linger there occasionally.